On My Second Mother's Day...

 

I'm a big puddle of tears. 

Being a mother is a dream come true and has exceeded any expectation I ever had. It's the gift that keeps on giving because literally every day, when I look into London's big brown eyes or hear her sweet little giggle, I am reminded of God's grace. I'm reminded that God has entrusted her to me for this time on Earth...His precious jewel and treasure. What an overwhelmingly beautiful image that is. I say "overwhelmingly beautiful" because I often feel incapable and insufficient as a mom. How could I possibly be "enough" or have what it takes to be everything she deserves?

As I sit here with tears coming down my face, I think of my own mother and what she is to me. How she used to sit on the edge of my bed and sing to me in the dead of night because I was scared. Or when she would greet me after school with snacks and always with a smile. She would laugh with me, and she would cry with me too. She taught us about Jesus and that at the end of the day, when all is said and done, "God is bigger than all of it." Most importantly, she was PRESENT; for every event big or small...for every victory and every loss. When I think of her and how she epitomizes the word "mother," my heart can rest because I know that I have had the best teacher. 

Almost two years ago, I became a mommy for the first time; I love London desperately. The wild part about it all is that somehow, the depth of my love for her grows more and more each day. I pray that she will always know and feel the love of her parents, and most importantly, the love of our Savior. Even on days when I feel like I don't have what it takes, I am reminded that LOVE is enough.

Mamas - We are all in this together! Tackling this whole "motherhood" thing is the hardest job in the world and we are doing the best we can. Our children will always remember the way we made them feel so love them, cherish them, and tell them how special they are. 

I hope everyone has the most perfect Mother's Day...thank you for coming along on this journey with me!

xx, Ashley